Herbs!

Hi and Merry Meet,
The other day I was at my coven sister's house. One of the things she is amazing at is growing herbs. She has a massive collection of mint. I think I counted five different kinds in one bed alone. She also has an amazing veggie garden and starting this year she has started a small poison garden.

While I would love to say I also have a huge garden, it would be a major lie. I've tried to grow herbs.... it never ends well. I hear that mint is the easiest thing to grow. I can't understand this because every time I try to grow mint it dies. One time I managed to get it to mold. Another it got bugs. Those are the more memorable ones. Most times it just shrivels up and dies. I can get rosemary and lavender to go. Mint is my downfall.  So needless to say, I was envious of my coven sister's garden.

After telling my group about my problem with mint they took it upon themselves to try to help me. We gathered a few different kinds and we wrapped them to dry. Everyone got a few bundles of herbs. I'm excited since she also was going to cut some peppermint sprigs to start rooting them in water once they are rooted, I can move them here to my attempt at a garden. Maybe this time I can grow it!

Blessed be,
Autumn

Recharging!

Hi and Merry Meet,
Hurray, vacation time! I need a few days of relaxation after all that has been going on in my life.

Friday night I went to circle. We had our midsummer ritual. I love getting together with my circle sisters as just being around them raises my spirits. I find just having a ritual solo our with circle always raises my spirits!

Yesterday, husband and I had a date night. He took me out for sushi and it was so nice to do something we haven't done in a while. It was nice to sit down and just have some time for us. Since he works nights, having dinner together is a luxury.

This morning I took a long walk in the woods. I went by myself and refreshed my soul with nature. Everything is so green and bursting with life. I went to a new park near my house. Appently, frisebee golf is the thing to do there. Lots of our parks around here have courses for it, but this place was hopping! Luckily, the hiking trails and the course don't overlap too much. Just crossing into the trails I had to be more aware of flying objects. I followed a small stream and saw lots of wildlife since I was out early. The frisebee golfers were out early too for the same reason I was, beat the midday heat! The rest of my day will be spent studying for my final in magick class tonight.
Blessed be,
Autumn

Moving Forward

Hi and Merry Meet,
After having my life turned upside down I have been talking with some of the union people here at work. They have been involved in my case since the beginning, but now they are helping me to move forward.

One thing that I asked for was for them to talk to the girl who set this all in motion. Not gonna lie, I might have done a spell to stop her from talking crap about me. She shouldn't have said anything in the first place, so I don't feel bad about asking the universe to make her stop. Since, in my current position, I can't talk to her and I don't want to, I asked that the union talk to her. I want her to know what she did and for her to stop trying to destroy my career. My union rep agrees that she should have a talking to however they want me to wait until next year. I will have a little more protection job wise at that point and then it would be good for it to happen. My friends also think that what happened to me will change a lot of the policies here at work. Someday karma will catch up to her. Maybe not at work, but somehow it will find her. I don't envy her when it does.

Even though what happened never should have, if it means that I can change the way my work deals with suicide and training for the people then it would be all worth it. I never want anyone to go though what I was put through and if I can use this experience to make a good change then I will. I was called a catalyst for change yesterday by a friend who thinks that the only people who can change the system are the ones who have been beat down by it. After this experience, I kind of agree with that. Before all this, I would have said, no anyone can change it if they want to. Yes, I still think that, but now I know that having the first hand experience really helps fuel the fire of change.

Today, I'm just happy it's Friday. I plan to go out to dinner with my husband and have a relaxing weekend with no stress from work. It should be a lot of fun!

Blessed be,
Autumn

Moving Forward

Hi and Merry Meet,
After having some tough weeks at work I've needed some healing time. The one thing that has been good is how my husband has been there for me.

Today, we went out to lunch. It was nice to do something so simple to make things feel right. We also stopped for a quick geocache. I got some seven day candles and planned out some spells to rid my life of major negativity. Tomorrow I'm helping out at our coven's fundraiser.

Now, I'm going for a walk and then enjoying a movie with my husband. Thank the goddess for him. He has been a rock and I've told him everyday I don't know what I would do without his support.
Blessed be,
Autumn

Rough Patches

Hi and merry meet,
I haven't written in way too long. I've been going through some rough stuff and needed some time.

At my job, I was venting to a coworker about a case that has been very fustrating for me. I haven't been supported and was telling her this. She ran to the bosses twisting my words saying I was suicidal. I was asked to stay home for six days, had to have a mental health exam and endless meetings about it. Since I wasn't suicidal I went to my dr to get a clearance. That one wasn't good enough so I had to go to a dr that they choose. I passed that exam too. Now the bosses liked like asses and had to change their tune. I was allowed back to work and told I was unprofessional. My awesome coworker has had nothing happen to her. Mind you, she blew me in five days after we had this chat. If I was truely suicidal you wouldn't wait. The bosses told me over and over that she did this because she cared and it was not retaliation. Yeah, right. I don't know what I did to her but I can tell you she is my least favorite person right now. If the opportunity presented itself for her to feel the hurt and pain I felt....well, someday karma will pay her back.

We've also had to deaths recently. One was my husband's aunt and one was my friend. Our aunt was a very special lady. She had been sick for a while but in the end she left on her terms. I know she is whole and happy again. My friend lost her battle with cancer. She was the most amazing person and I was lucky enough to be her friend. Both ladies will be missed.

I will try to be better about my updates from now on.
Blessed be,
Autumn